Panikherz

A brilliant narrative about the obsessions of our Western culture, a novel about a fallen hero. Benjamin von Stuckrad-Barre tells a story that one could not even imagine: He wanted the rockstar frenzy and the rockstar life, got both, and consequently also the rockstar downfall. Former fame, loss of reality, drug addiction. Udo Lindenberg's rebellious fairy tale songs shaped and seduced him, but Udo himself becomes a friend and later a savior. And then a journey of self-discovery in the most unlikely place - the myth-laden Hotel Chateau Marmont in Hollywood. What was planned as a retreat and a period of reflection turns out to be a return to writing and a life as a novel. Around him, the intoxication rages, but this time the narrator remains sober. Writing, he recalls his dreams and heroes - and ultimately meets many of them again, in the end as well.