Was wir schon immer sein wollten

Three years have passed since Felix and Martin became a couple again. Since then, a wedding and four deaths have caused plenty of chaos, but now, just before his 30th birthday, Felix finally feels settled. Well, there are still a few unanswered questions. Does being in an official relationship with Martin make him happier than secret affairs with supposed heterosexuals? And was it really right to banish his former best friend Emilie from his life after a big fight? Felix decides to put an end to his hesitations and makes the decision of his life. 'What We Have Always Wanted to Be' is the conclusion of Julian Mars' Felix trilogy. With deadpan humor and narrative sensitivity, the author drives his anti-hero to a point where all the questions from 'Now We Are Young' and the sequel 'Let's Disappear from Here' culminate in a surprising realization. Despite many references to the backstory, the novel stands on its own. It is a clever, fast-paced, and witty book about friendship, love, and the big question of whether what we are can ever live up to what we have always wanted to be.